This is just another random chat I had with my sister on MSN yesterday:


Denise: you know, Nick say we look alike and blog alike.
Anita: Oooo yameh
Denise: I was like..where got. My blog was chapalang (rojak).
Anita: Our blog where got alike lah..
Denise: My english so laoyah. With a bit of malay, chinese, hokkien and english.
Anita: brb.
Denise: k.


*A few minutes later*

Anita: Actually I didnt go anywhere.
Denise: ...stupid.
Anita: ..
Denise: argh. Make me feel stupid.
Anita: Haha for what lah.
Denise: Where got lil sis makes big sis feel stupid one. Aih, I think the whole world only got you.

Hm, LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH.


And now, me and my sister both like Ed Westwick. >: (

SAKIT PERUT. This is the kind of days I want to avoid in my life. You know those kind of stomach ache, there's air in your stomach, you want to shit but cannot shit. -.-" Yeah, I'm in those kinda pain now. I've been in and out the toilet for more than 3 times. Still nothing happen.

Skip, skip. Today I woke up at 9.45 and had breakfast. The day went on like usual: online and chatting with friends on MSN. Okay, skip skip. I camwhored.




















































After that, me and my roomie went to Pyramid. She wanted to get a tattoo, after she saw mine. So we did went to Pyramid and there was a serious traffic jam.The taxi guy charged us rm7 when it was supposed to be rm5, he said it was because there was a traffic jam. Anyway, I wasnt in the mood to argue.

Anita: *handing over rm5* RM 5 right?
Taxi guy: RM 7.
Anita: HUH WHY?!
Taxi guy: Cause traffic jam.
Anita: *tak mahu layan and taking out money*
Taxi guy: Understand la, traffic jam. You also understand right.
Anita: *your stupid head lah*


































































































So we went to get the tattoo. My roomie was so scared. -.- She was asking all sorts of questions like will it hurt, will the skin get infections .. AIYO IT IS JUST A TEMPORARY TATTOO LAH. So in the end she chose a dolphin.

I cannot tahan, so I got another one. Hehe, I think it's a nice one. Plus I got 3 ringgit off as a discount for coming for the second time in one week! (:






















Nice righttt???? ( : Got color somemore!


I've been feeling shitty about myself lately. The whole body confidence thingy. I am having my "fat" days. I just called my mother justnow to complain because my sister was obviously sick of me complaining. I hate it when I feel like this. I even talked to Sean about it. I gotta say, I have family and friends that are REALLY supportive. Okay la people, it is not like I am fat, but thing is I am not thin either, and it is really annoying. Thin and tall girls are almost everywhere: in magazines and shopping malls, and even among my friends.

People say I am just the right size, and I know this. But to me, being "the right size" means maintaining the way my body is now, meaning I have to control what I eat because I have to control. Eat a little bit too much, I am going to be fat. Eat a little bit little, I am going to lose weight. :(

sigh sigh sigh.

And it's not like I want to complain. Some days I really am thankful to have the body that I have. But at times, you know, you get influenced. Thin people will comment on you. It's not their fault, anyway, because they are thin and to them I am F.A.T. I dont wanna be fat. :'( Okay, I am not fat, but I am meaty. It is almost the same.

There are definitely people out there thinking that I am crazy for posting about this since I am an okay-sized person. Definitely, there are. My sister is one of them. But what can I say? And you guys can't blame me, unless you're saying that you've never felt insecure about how you look before. That would be totally unbelievable.

And and, there are the days at shopping malls. Trying out nice clothes and not being able to buy clothes that are tight because the meat will budge out and stuff. :( You girls who are skinny, you guys are lucky. What more, my brother criticizes me. But I appreciate them because my siblings are all perfectionists. :/ I am definitely CURVIER than I was last year, I see the differences in pictures. BIG DIFFERENCES. And when I look at those pictures, I want to cry my heart out.

I've had my days too. I remember in my previous school, there were a lot of thin girls. Girls who were the same age as me as same height as me weighing only 35-40 kg, and me..I am like. well, I myself wish I didnt have to know my own weight. And then there are the girls in my class who eat like pigs. They eat oily stuff, fattening stuff and junk food EVERDAY. And they are still so thin, days after days. And then months. They never get fat, I swear. It is so torturing, to see people thinner than me eating so much and then not gaining even 0.5.kg. And their stomach is just so flat. They can sit down without any tummy folding and fats and... And they can wear bikinis.

WHY AM I ON THE CURVIER SIDE?????????

sigh.

I'm depressed, HAPPY?


Sometimes I find you so hard to believe.
If I could, I just want to turn my life off.
And maybe just take a rest.
I've had enough, you're ruining all of this for me.
I have a life, get it?
Better one or worse one, it's none of your business.

Yes I am not perfect, I want to be.
Don't you see how hard this is for me?
Why must you be like this? You enjoy pissing me off don't you.
When you pick up the telephone, my heart beats faster.
Because I am scared, not flattered.
By the sounds of your laughter.

It scares the hell out of me.

I need peace.

I went to the doctor today.

Since lunch yesterday, there's this sharp thing poking me in the throat everytime I swallow my saliva. I thought it was the fish, maybe a small bone or something. It hurts and I do not like this kinda pain. :( So my guardian took me to the doctor and turned out it wasnt a bone or anything close, it was, an ulcer. First time having an ulcer so deep.

The rest of the day was kinda boring. I woke up at 12 so half of the day had already went by. (: Had lunch and then got an sms from Sean saying that he was going to get a tattoo since he was in Pyramid, too! :) Hehe, we sms-ed for quite a while and then he had to do something.

And since he ain't going to blog about it, so people, meet Sean's new tattoo!




























Hehe, he makes me wanna go get more! (:


Okay I'm gonna admit it, I spent quite some time googling Ed Westwick's pictures! (: He is just oh-so-HOT! (:


















































And the current plan for tomorrow is going ice-skating. :)

Today was awesome. (: I just got back from Pyramid with my brother and his friend. It was really unexpected, though. But let's start from the beginning.

I actually woke up at 10.30 but then I was too lazy, so I woke up only at 11. Hey, it's a holiday people! Anyways, had an apple for breakfast but had a real lunch. I realized I did not at all talk to my room mate today even though we were in the same room for hours. She was reading Science - wtf??? This is a scary sign: studying during the holiday and when there is nothing to study about?

After lunch, I went to the school bookshop and bought a cheap chinese magazine. Was looking through the magazine when my brother called. He appeared to be on his way to Pyramid with his friend MJ. So he called to ask me to get my ass there, so I did! =) I was so excited 'cause I havent seen him in weeks!! So when I got to Pyramid I straightaway went to the arcade cause they were there.

We watched Mama Mia! after that. It is such a funny movie! I was sitting between the two guys and there was a part where a character started singing:

Brother: What the hell..??
Me: Haha. it's a musical, didnt you know?
Brother: -.-" yamehh!

Haha, but no regrets watching the movie though! (: Brother loved the movie at the end. So did I and hopefully so did MJ. Haha. :D









































Anyway, we walked around after that and suddenly I said that I wanted to get a tattoo, but not a real one of course! So we walked to Asian Avenue and looked for THAT tattoo shop. We found it, found the perfect designs, and got started. I asked my brother for the tattoo that I should get because I trust his taste on this kinda thing. (: haha!














































































































While my brother hangs on to my bag and checked out some..er..

























MJ wanted to get one, too. He looked for a design and then got his too!





































































This time, my brother checked out the..er..





































































After that, we went to look for a place to have dinner. ALMOST ALL THE RESTAURANTS WERE PACKED! We had to walk to so many places to check. We walked for almost half an hour and went to Tony Roma's, Kim Gary, Pizza Hut, Carls. Jr., etc etc. At the end, we chose Nando's. -.-" Still, we had to wait for some empty spaces. But it was worth the walks and the waiting haha. ;)




























Who the hell eats so much? MJ actually helped me apologize to this guy for snapping a picture at him with a flash. -.-





























FINE.






















Still in the line, oh yes.

Meanwhile, me and my brother laughed when we told each other that we teased our sister who is in Australia because she couldnt join us! :) Muahahaha!

At dinner, we talked a lot while waiting for the food. It was quite quiet when we were eating. Haha, all of us were too hungry! (: But we all got high after that and talked about SEX. It started off by me telling about what we were learning in my sex ed. class and then MJ started his "theories" and "professional lectures" on sex. hehe, Jiansheng joined in a little bit after that. x)





















The cupcakes look nice!






















Brother and sister. :)




























MJ loves that sauce.






















These people should be lucky to be in this picture.






















My order.






















Brother's. And that is MJ's hand. x)





















MJ's.






















Not long after.




























Brother on phone. :) ehehehe.




























MJ pandai berlakon. haha.






















HEH.

We lepak-ed around and talked more after dinner. Mostly about sex and school, and I told them about my room mate problem. :) Went to MPH after that and then it was time to go home! :'( Haha. They waited for me to get back first, of course! But it was a fun day! ;)


When I got back, my mummy called and I told her I got a temporary tattoo! She was totally cool with it! (: And now I'm gonna watch a video by Sean! He said it's a funny video, so being a really good friend, I GO WATCH! ;)

Take a look around.

What is it that you see that others don't see?



I ♥ my life. (:

Oh yes, one week of holiday! (: Imma going to Penang, you?

School was only half day today cause there was a Parents-teacher meeting going on. So we finished our class at 12.30. Most of my friends were staying back so I stayed back too. Me, Syeyi and Chu Ching actually planned to go to Pyramid today but in the end only the two of them went. I stayed back along with Isaac, Amanda, Syuyi and a lot of other students.

We were all just hanging around and then Amanda wanted to go buy some waffles sold just outside the school. So we went there and get some, and saw Michael, Albert, Polly, and Isaac all there. -.- Small world it is. Anyway, they were going back to the school anyway.

We were on our way back to the school and then saw Kyohei. He was going to smoke and luckily he has friends like us, me, Amanda, and Syuyi dragged him back to the school and made him sit on a stool.

But at the end, he ter-cabut. -.-" We found him outside the school.

Bullied Thoms and Isaac, too. Fun Fun Fun. Annoying them. (:


We went to the field to play ultimate frisbee after that. It was such a nice feeling. Running around the empty field with wind blowing. Just like our childhood. (: When it started raining. From drizzling to heavily, we had to run so fast. Amanda took off her shoes so she had to run all the way from the field to the school barefoot! :D


































































Have some homework to do. Phys.ed we have to make a poster about STI/STD. I'm choosing genital herpes! And business another portfolio. -.-" Oh haha, at least I've finished my research for P.E.! (:


Happy Raya Holidays people!

I'm probably facing every student's worst nightmare. Students who live in other countries other than their own. And probably everyone who lives in a room with someone else :

To live with a totally crazy, mental person.

Okay, my room mate is not someone who is MENTALLY crazy. But. ARGH. I am getting so so so so so so tiredddddddd! I am not like those I-don't-care-about-you room mate. I've been there for her and I've stayed up to as late as 1.30am to listen to her problems and complains, and then I comfort her. Those night, I sleep in a very very stress mode. And the next morning I wake up, I go do my usual stuff: bath and getting ready. I remember one day my room mate woke up and the first thing she said to me:

"I'm so sad"
Then that is how your day is going to be. SAD.

For one whole week I did that. Listened to her and slept very late. Everyday I see her cry. Yes, my room mate has some personal issues and very serious ones. Like about boyfriends and her life. Yes people, I see her cry EVERYDAY. Every morning, I see that her swollen eyes, all from crying the night before.

AND THEN. There were the meeting with her aunt and the teachers in school. Let me get it clear, I am the one go to those meetings. I had to go to those meeting to report on how she is doing and then solve it. I have her aunt's number, too.

THANK GOD for one whole week she didnt cry after that.

AND THEN IT ALL STARTED AGAIN.

Oh, not to mention she is now sitting at the back of me and crying and smiling for god-knows-why.

Living in the same room with her, there are a lot of special, memorable EVENTS.

1. Someone calls her, she goes out to talk. Come back to room, with a crying face.

2. Everyone bribes. Like when she wants to use internet, she'll try to kiss me. The nearest she ever came to me was like, we were only maybe 2.5 cm apart. Not on the lips. Hello la. I am NOT a lesbian ok.

3. She cries like a big baby just because her mum booked trips for the two of them, and she "cannot see my friends and teachers in Hong Kong".

4. She cuts herself. Last night,5 cuts. WOW.

5. When she tells me her problems, she is laughing. I lecture her, she laugh. Laugh more lah, better than seeing you cry.

6. She knocked herself on the wall next to her bed and asked me why there is a wall there. Oh, so you'd prefer to fall all the way from the 4th floor issit?

7. Right now she is standing on the table and saying "I'm the tallest".


Okay, it's not like I am not annoying at all. I'm sure there are times that I was annoying to her. But she! OMG. She's asking me questions about the school almost every single second! Stuff like.

"Why some of the teachers here so old?"
"I drop maths already, how come they didnt take my book away?"

PLEASE LAH. ASK THE SCHOOL LAH. ASK ME FOR WHAT.

Oh gosh, I'm gonna get crazy soon too. You guys probably think I'm crazy too.

Yes my room mate, I heard you. You are the tallest. I get it.

ARGH.