i therefore say that, i am problematic.

for having "so many problems".

I'm hoping for something

something more.

Im currently at my dad's clinic. :)
Me and my mum went grocery shopping justnow and as we were walking back, I heard people calling my name. I turned around, and saw Elliot and Chang waving at me from an Indian mamak stall not far away. But far away to say that their faces were very small. Hah. :) Havent seen them in a long time. We go wayyyyy back to years ago. Music and everything. :D

I might have Amiera as roommate this time. :) thousands of YAY's.

I'm hoping for something. :)

trust, then compel

so much to do, so little time.

It's SUNDAY! And I didnt know it until just - half an hour ago! :)

I went to watch the Transformers with my parents. It's boring. I kept yawning though I didnt want to.

Right now im just waiting for my sister and of course, her dslr . :)

le sports day.

went to the previous school's sports day today and got to hang out with some old besties :) plus some stupid peoplel. ( ;

Sylvia :D

Vivian and Sylvia <3

Vivian, Anita, Penny ;)

Florence.

don't tell me.

am i the only one alive for now?

i really want to see a doctor about my backbone. A backbone specialist?

always the legend; rest in peace.

Michael Jackson,

rest in peace.

My parents told me that MJ passed away during breakfast this morning. It came as a huge shock though I remained calm. I didnt even know he was admitted to the hospital few days earlier.

May your soul rest in peace.

pink the way to go!

I spent 5 hours at the salon today. My ass is already numb. But im pretty satisfied with the overall result! :) PINK AND GREEN/ TURQUOISE.

Ta ; )

dont worry.

love, hugs, kisses.

I painted my nails brown :) well, more like bronze?

smile like the crazy person you already are.

My mum created this cornflacks thing this morning. Instead of milk with the normal cereals, she put in fruits like bananas, grapes, apples, pears, longans and pineapples. She was almost done with hers until she saw that the fruits that are left make a smiley face -

Hah, cute eh? Anyways, my bro injured himself last night. Made my parents and I, especially my mom, so worried. -.- Oh, this is one of my favorite tops that I recently purchased :)

I think it's quite cute (:

DOING SOMETHING CRAZY TO MY HAIR TOMORROW :)

time to fly.

'cause theyre the awesometos here :)

Last night's dream makes me smile :)

Explanation: to make western in character.

Jia Kai. Anita.

More people from KZ are coming next sem.

Ooh, pray they are hot guys!

There's one that just came back from the States, so he should be ang mo-fied.

...you mean westernized?

Ang mo-fied sounds cooler.

RUSSELL PETERS.

After dinner,

i showed my parents some videos of Peters' talkshows.

we ended watching almost all of his episodes. :)

and we laughed like crazy.

figure me out,

simplicity.

Went to the dentist today :) I havent been there for more than 5 years. My teeths are all good, just so you know :) But my gum is covering my left wisdom tooth, which explains why I feel more pain on the left side than on the right side :)

At the end, my mum was the one who had to do something with her tooths. -.- I just stood there and watch for, what, 20 minutes? Hah :)

After that me and my mum went shopping :) I bought two dresses. :)

On my way back home, i looked at the sky and thought, cool. :) So i took a picture.

see, its raining on the left side only. :)

Last night my mum took out some pictures of me as a baby and suggested to me that I post the pictures up on my blog. I look cute, haha, so why not? :)

Yes haha they ARE me :)

Look closely on the left picture :) IM DROOLING.

AND OMG MY EYES ARE LIKE TADPOLES.

my bro, me, and my sis blowing my the candles on my mum's birthday :)

GAHAHAHA. :D

DENISE. WHERE. IS. THE. PICTURE.

like i care.

i can't say i don't care at all, about what you said.

but i can say that i dont care as much as you think i should or would.

because as long as im happy and i know what im doing,

i wont care about a shit you say.

take your shit back, please.

fathers' day! <3

sometimes we don't really know what we are looking for.

Fathers' Day, for me, went quite well. :) I stayed up until 1 last night to make a card for my dad. I used to make cards for my parents but I dont get to do that often now, so I figured why not. Besides, I've been staying up and sleeping really late the whole of last week and this week.

Jia Kai just called :) I miss hanging out with him, Cedric and Amiera lah. :(

Jia Kai. Anita.

Hello?

Hello, uhm, who's speaking please?

Huh? Oh sorry, is Anita there?

*laughs* I am her!

Oh, *laughs*

*recognizes laughter* OH JIA KAI ISSIT!!!!

*LAUGHS*

Haiyo sorry la! I "reformated" my phone and you are not on my list!

JIA KAI, WE WILL MAKE YOU UP ;)

funny shit. as y'all know, today's fathers day. if i were to still be studying at my previous school, i'd be taking back my report card on fathers' day. tsk tsk. Some dads today get the best present, some, get the worse?

my phone is all good now :)

i'd rather not care.

my phone is currently NOT working.

and i am still waiting for my sister to send me the picture.

and my backbone hurts like SHIT

Father's day is tomorrow;

are you doing anything? ;)

I just spent the night watching Sex and the City. it's a good movie :) I like happy endings.

earlier in the evening i chatted with amanda and adilet. amanda in kl and adilet all the way in kz. he was supposed to tell me GOSSIP something while i go to dinner. and when i came back,

he.

was.

already.

offline.

and all he wrote was,

"Im a man! I can prove it! Hahaha!".

my backbone hurts. :(

dad's asking me to go do some stretching.

bye now.

clarity;

' im breaking the habit tonight.

MY BACKACHE IS KILLING ME.

ever felt so lonely during the night? When the whole house is quiet and you are the only one who is still awake?

to see.

Internet has been down the last two days, I think? It's up again! :)

Cry, let it out (:

what does it feel like to hear the heart beating?

False face must hide what the false heart doth know

because, it's just not time to tell yet.

14 questions.

currently listening to; Miley Cyrus - Goodbye.

insomnia. the inability to sleep. i never really got them though, but i thought i did. some nights i spend hours thinking about "what if's" and things that could happen. I always ask myself questions which me myself can't answer because it is not for me to answer. It's the kind of questions you wouldn't really want to ask someone because then it is awkward. What questions do you ask yourself? I always ask myself, and i mean always;

am i appreciated? | what is my purpose in life? | do you think of me? | what am i really doing here? | would i ever live to see what i really want to see in my life? | is this the life that i want? | what would happen to us all? | would it make a difference if i had not existed? | will there be a miracle in my life? | would i ever meet the one? | what would happen to me? | when would criticisms stop? | is everything i do ever enough? | whatever happened to the dancer in me 8 years ago? |

OH NOOOOOOOOO!

OH NO. BIG OH NO!

Mum. Me

Tomorrow 10 o'clock you go learn piano and drums

WHATTTTTT? TOMORROW? OMG MY LIFE IS PERMANENTLY DESTROYED.

Haiyo. Your life is upgraded lah.

M.A.C. :)

My mum gave me a M.A.C lipstick this morning :) very pink!

Currently listening to - Love Story meets Viva la Vida

right here. :)

No, I did not change my hairstyle. I just did a little camwhoring this morning, my fringe is long enough to cover my eyes now :) Just wanted to see how it looks like in pictures. :D And I plan to do some highlights to it before school reopens!

90210 it is :)

da real man.

:) Just watched Night at the Museum 2 with my parents. The subtitle was horrible though, but I think they understood the movie? :)

Oh yes, my dad and mum taught me to plait my hear. Apparently, my dad taught my mum to plait her hair, draw her eyebrow, and tie her scarf! :D Haha! :)

LAUGH THEN SHIT.

Eating dinner with Isaac, Sean and Munyee is the hardest. They'll make you laugh until you get stomach ache and until you need to go to the toilet and until you cry.

Just look at Mark laugh!

hellos and byes.

now that the guys have gone back, I find myself pretty bored. and it's only been the first day. When I was back in KL, I had planned to just -relax- the whole way through the holidays. But I would really need cool wind blowing and a place for me to lie down to do that.

Chu ching has cancelled her trip to Sandakan. Hello, solitude. :(

I'm going to give a short descriptions of what we did for the 5 days.

Day 1 -

met up at the aiport. Board the plane. arrived Sandakan. ate at 918. stayed up until 6am with Amanda and Mark

Day 2-

sightseeing around Sandakan. Breakfast on the sea. Visited churches.

Day 3-

Orang utans. proboscis monkeys. rainforest. fireflies.

Day 4-

brought the guys to souvenir shops. headed home. rooftop cafe till 12am.

Day 5-

crocodile farm. more sightseeing. lunch at Ocean King. airport to send them off. lonely night. :(

I have a lot, and I mean A LOT of movies to watch for this holiday but then again, come to think about it, I have lots of time to do that. I just don't know why, I guess I miss talking to the guys. I just feel like talking to them.

I really need to talk to someone. :| But, who?

What do I plan to do tonight? To be honest, I dunno. My parents are out. My brother is in KL and my sister is in Australia. And i'm .. - here, at home. GAH.

Oh and for the record, I have taken 1209 pictures during the 5 days Amanda, Mark, Munyee, Isaac, and Sean were here :)

they're home.

Amanda, Mark, Sean, Munyee and Isaac have all left for KL. I think they're arrived there now. Sigh, all of sudden the house is so quiet and my room is so empty. I feel kinda lonley already. And when I hugged Amanda at the airport I almost cried.  :(

I can't wait to go back and hangout with them all again  :(

picturesss.

Just a very short post on the Sabah trip  :) here are some pictures from the thousand over that we've taken!  :D They're going back tomorrow though  :(