conform yourself.

my topic on psychology's culminating task  :)

today is an awesome day though there are some news I still can't really take in.  :(  Man, the darkest semester of SIS.  My animation for BTA is already done and I've done 3 so I'm just gonna choose one from the three. Tomorrow's Labour Day so im gonna finish up my homework, Saturday is an outing day and Sunday - er, just Sunday. 

Halfway through English class, the whole troupe of Grade 10 P.E. students came back to school. They went camping at Gunung Datul yesterday and came back today. I swear to god they stinked real bad! So we were talking about how smelly the whole school was and Adrian who happened to be in PE. was behind us.

Adrian: I can hear you, you know.

Anita: Oh? I can see you. 

ISH. -.- duh it's not like you dont know you guys stink.

It was so crazy justnow after school. I came back from the uni cafe with Syeyi and there was this big group: Sonia, Amiera, Steven and many others huddling around Sonia's laptop. They were actually playing a scary game on her laptop, where you do not know what will happen next, and then you get scared and then you scream. So me, Syeyi, Mark, Cedric, Max, Frans, Calwin, Mahendra and many others joined in watching. Mr Smajda and Mr Owen got so curious at what we were looking at :D  Mr Smajda told us to watch the whole thing/ scary game in his room on the touchscreen so it will be "spookier" so we did! Haha! All the lights were turned off, even Mr Smajda and Mr Owen were scared! Haha! There were a lot of screaming  :D 

After that we were all hanging out and Syeyi was throwing her lip balm into the air and catching it again. It turned to a game of "fight for the lip balm" where she throws it into the air and the guys try to catch it before she does.  

As quoted by Syeyi, "I feel so bored and younggggggg."

Me, Jia Kai, Syeyi, Syuyi and Amiera were hanging outside school with Hooman before he went home. We were just fooling around and I think Syeyi got too hyper. She pretended to be a penguin.

Syeyi: *flaps arms*look Im a penguinnnn :)

Anita: ...

Syeyi: How does a penguin sounds like? piak?? ngeehorrrr?

Anita: .. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! NGEEHORRRRRRR??!!! 

Then Mahendra came and asked Syeyi something.

Syeyi: Oh you're playing that game.

Mahendra: yea.

Syeyi: you have to take picture of the ghost.

Anita: What? Mahendra takes pictures of girls?  :D 

Man. you're so screwed up. oh wells. 

baby, im crazy.

"Hahaha!"  :)

I'm crazy :D  crazy and laughing! 

Psychology class. 

ETHNOCENTRISM.

YES? NO? 

yay.

I'M FEEEEEELING BETTER  :)

YAYYYYYYYYYYY!

miss mraz is sick! :(

nooooo. miss mraz is sick.

Get well soon, you  :)   stop sniffing around hehe.  

you need to help me with my blog  ;D

See ya tomorrow, miss mraz!

Talking to you made me feel a lot betterrrr : )

the weak and hoping heart.

today isn't any better. i need a miracle, fast.

i promise myself i'd feel better someday. 

i just don't know when.

born from silence, silence full of it.

I'm suddenly in a very depressed mode. Oh how I wish this sem would be over in a second. I can't take it anymore. I hate it when I feel like this, I hate it when i hate my life. Depressions suddenly seems like a friend to me. One that accompanies me every single second. I found more reasons to hate my life, to hate myself. 

I don't talk crap when I'm in a bad mood. I know what I'm saying and talking about. 

Sometimes I think of how death feels like, just to realize that I sometimes wish death came to me and bring me somewhere else, somewhere more peaceful somewhere better. 

Oh, I'm so depressed. Don't you all you just hate me. Well if you must then hate me because I'm depressing to be around with. Better save yourself before you go insane with me. 

I really want to cry now. but the tears wont' come. i wish there was a way, if possible, for the tears to come themselves. i want to lie down and cry for hours. let everything out. 

i wish there was someone i can call and talk to. i wish they'd tell me everything is fine. 

i can't say it.

i realized, i can't write or say how i feel. i can't express them. 

School's Open Day.

I saw Zane. Ah, but I think he doesnt recognize me. haha. Oh and the band, I look stupid just standing and playing the sleighbell. But it was all good.  :D  I spent half of the morning camwhoring - I need some new pictures for my Facebook profile and also my blog!  :)

I might be meeting Sean later. That guy, how long didnt see and talk to him already.  :)

Oh! our guardian at the hostel has MSN.  :D Haha,that's so cute. Was chatting to him and it reminded me of the time when my parents used MSN too :D Haha! Anyway, he's away on a longgg break until the mid May  :(

Dont believe their lies told from jealous eyes.

If you were told that everything would be OK, will you believe them?
When you know that nothing can ever stay the same?

Blackmailing works. :)

My school is having an Open Day tomorrow and i'm performing in the school band, playing the sleighbell. Ooh, there was also this fundraising event today in which I took part in. We sold nasi lemak, capatti, ice cream, magazines and clothes. Mr Smajda bought nasi lemak and capatti and refused when i asked him to get an ice cream. So i blackmailed him  ;)

Anita: Mr Smajdaaaaaaaa get an ice creammmm

Mr Smajda: Nah, Im having these two.

Anita: *walks ups* Get an ice cream or I wont come to band tomorrow  :)

Mr Smajda: *opens eyes widely* okay okayyy gimme one.

After that,

Mr Smajda: *to me* You're lucky you play the most important instrument in the band!

Hehe! So me and Amiera helped out at the booth a little then we went to Pyramid and joined the others: Syeyi, Syuyi, Shima, Nadira, Adilet, Mahendra, Maga, Djambu, Hatso, Siva, and Hooman. The guys were playing pool and us girls walked around and had Baskin Robin. 

Nadira left earlier though then we went back to school first 'cause the guys were still at pool. The guys came back after, 15 to 20 minutes I guess? then we hung out at Ms Pey Wah's office and were singing some songs.  ;) 

Ooh, remember I said I fell down on my bum the night I was hyper? I actually knocked the edge of my bed, now I have a bruise and my bum hurts. The bruise is a perfect circle, made me cover it with a plaster today.

And behold, the mighty bruise:

Preeeetty, huh?  :)

I'm lacking sleep. I need sleep.  :(

Wipe that smirk off your face, dude. 

Today's a bad day. bad day. bad day. 

Essi is one my left. Tram on my right.

They're arguing.

AGAIN.

Mine and Amanda's  :)

- Made from plastic bags for Earth Day - 

this is my perfect moment.

- but we'll never know that -

I've got a long post ahead.  :)  The reason of me not updating this blog with pictures is because there's nothing going on I havent been using my camera a lot  :\  There's been ups and downs. ups and downs.

I realized that I get hyper more during the night. Like, I won't stop laughing and am happy for no reason, which is weird. Two nights ago Amiera was at my room and we were damn hyper. We borrowed Cedric's speakers, put music on, and danced like crazy - as though we were at a concert. We made videos of us jumping around like maniacs :)

Band practise yesterday was okay.  :)  I play the sleighbell and apparently, I have a "SOLO" where ALL the other instruments stop playing and it's just me shaking the sleighbell for 4 beats. It's so funny! Mr Smajda is making a big deal about it. He filmed us playing the song and when he played the video for us, he asked everyone to quiet down to listen to my SOLO.  -_-  He's a fun teacher, though  ;)  Cedric was still in dance when we were done and he asked us to wait for him to go dinner together so me and Amiera went to Classroom 1 and blasted music from the speaker. A while later Cedric and Mano came and started dancing in front of the classroom. I was the DJ! :D  They were dirty dancing and it was sooo damn funny, Amiera has all the videos!  :D We were just watching the videos justnow and couldnt stop laughing.  :)  And also the video of me falling down on my ass the night I was hyper.  -.-"

During study period today, Ms Rani made announcement through the speakers and said that she wanted to see some students and I was one of them. I was like, whoaaaa what did I do? Turns out she just wanted to talk to me about the subjects I'm taking for next sem. My history is going to clash with P.E. so I'm saying bye to P.E. and hello to Drama - hopefully! I don't want Marketing! :(  

Psychology today was fun :) Yes, Im saying the class is fun! :)  The whole class was divided into two groups: one group of 10 and the other group of 11. I was with Essi, Ahmad, Kyohei, Noah, Shima, Robin, Michael, Najwa, Jasmine and Wenyi. The other group would be Sang, Tram, Aaron, Steven, Belle, Frans, Shauna, Jon, Syuyi and Jiyun. Each of us had to come up with an object that we will bring with us if we were stranded on an island and in our group, we had to combine all the objects together and come up with a creative way to survive in the island. The group with the more creative idea gets chocolate!

This was our conversation.

Najwa: Okay so who's bringing what?

Robin: laptop *LAUGHTERS*

Najwa: But you cant survive on it!

Robin: I can play games!

Noah: Dude, the battery is gonna last for only 2 hours.

Essi: You're gonna play games? The battery will be less than 2 hours!

Robin: When my computer dies, I will commit suicide

*LAUGHTERS*

Noah: Katana *WHAT?* It's a japanese sword. You can use it almost for anything, cutting trees and wood..

Kyohei: Alcohol

Ahmad: Shovel

Wenyi: marshmallow

me: lighter

Michael: *to Essi* What you bringing man?

Essi: I'm playing machete, dude

Michael: What? Your shaving tool?

*everyone bursts out in laughters*

:) While from the other group I heard stuff like "we could use the guitar to smash.."

So! How did we decide on how we could survive? This is our explanation to the class.

*after saying what each of us has* "So Robin decides that he will commit suicide using Noah's katana after his computer runs out of battery. We're gonna eat him as food, and use his spectacles to make fire, his earring can be a hook when it comes to fishing. His clothes as fishing nets and .. we'll use the UNWANTED PARTS of him to be the bait. And the alcohol we could also use to make fire as well as the lighter. The marshmallows and Robin can make us not starve for quite long.."

Both groups won in the end! Everyone got a chocolate!  :)

After school, I went to the uni cafe and met Syeyi, JK and Adilet there. Hatso and Mano came after that. We hung out a bit - the guys ate some stuff then we went back to school. I was drawing out a flyer for a fundraising event that's going to take place this Friday and Ooh , this Friday is dress down day  :)

And one more news, PROM IS CANCELLED. The SAC will try to have another one next sem - they better 'cus I'm graduating! :(

Okay , this is a good update :)  Ciao, I have assignments waiting for me!

this frozen time.

One crazy day,

more to come.   :)

1. Blasting music from the speaker in a classroom after school.

2. Dancing and fooling around with friends as though we're in a club.

3. Random talks and the laughters that came with it.

But oh, why must Simon and Piggy die?!  :(

sorry, english class novel  :)

cries.

Am I to believe all that I see?

"If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it.

Remember only the verse, songmaker's cry the one without tears"

**

I want to pick up that shell, crack it,

See those beautiful fragments inside it...

**

you know they'd never know how we feel,

they'd never know the times we've cried for them,

the times we spent screaming our hearts out for them.

they'd never know what they're tearing apart.

they'd never know.

**

mummy, am I pretty?

i do not know how to use make up, will you teach me?

mummy, am I pretty?

will i ever look like Barbie?

mummy, am I pretty?

do i look good in this and that?

**

with just a weak push, I could fall.

i look back as I fall, i see the dark ocean.

it's waiting for me to plunge in,

to drown all my sorrows.

perhaps one day, this ocean will

take the whole of me.

and bring my body to the open sea.

**

This smile comes easily.

I wonder, what does it take to make one person happy?

'Cause .

- for me, it doesn't take much.

Just being here, and looking back at memories.

and my loved ones; the family and friends.

Yeah, I'm happy with where I am ;)

The Notebook. ;)

I stayed over at a condo with my parents and their nurses yesterday. Seeing them again, and my brother, was awesome! I've missed them a lot :( We walked around in Mid Valley yesterday and there was a fashion show, turned out this week was Mid Valley Fashion Week. All the female models are pretty, but the male models are ------ well, they're just ok.

Oooh, ooh, my brother got us all a notebook. Everyone a different one, and there's a msg from him inside the notebook - this is mine:

:D Pretttty, aye?

This weekend has been awesome :)

It's so -

Today is rather boring. :(

I'm still in school btw. Amanda and some other people playing cards over at another table. I had to redo my English assignment so I decided to just finish it now, which I have! :) I spent almost 2 and a half hours on it and it's done!

Chu Ching came and visit justnow! It was greeeeat catching up with her again and showing her recent pictures and also pictures from last sem, back to those good memories. :D

Amanda and a whole group of people came back from Pyramid after that. Jien Soon pulled down William's pants and OMG. I SHALL NOT SAY WHAT I SAW :o



And yes, I've signed up for prom!

SIS Idol

SIS Idol last night was great :) Took lots of pictures and videos. Last year Syeyi won. Stephanie won this time, Syeyi got second and Aaron third.

It ended quite early though, around 9. We walked back to school after that and hung around a bit- taking pictures. Me, Amiera, Mahendra and Cedric went to a nearby shop to eat. Cedric's friends, Tom and Soheil, joined us a little while after.

Reached my room around 10 something. Was damnn tired!

Pictures. :)

This is my week.

This week loves me. :)

This is my week.

Everything's been great.

Anyway, me and Mano stayed back lateeeee yesterday to help choreograph dance moves for Farid's p.e. group. Heyyy we're not the best dancers but we can dance! Ended up staying in school dancing till 7.45pm ! Dinner was wayyyyy over by then so me, Mano, Farid and his other group members went to eat at a nearby shop. Farid paid for me! :D

See, just like us who had p.e. last sem, we had to find ourselves a group and then choreograph dance moves and perform it in front of almost the whole school. Ah, seeing them students dancing today bring back gooooood p.e. memories! :) I wanted to get up and start dancing too.

Gotta go, the crowd that came to see the students dance today was hugeeee! :) I took down some videos too. Hehe! I shall upload Farid's group dance soon! :)

And yes, SIS Idol is tonight. In about 2 hours. The others are at school. I plan to lie down for a while if I can. Ahhhh andddd, my parents are here! :) Will be seeing them this weekend and I can't waitttt!

Okay, I shall head off the Auditorium 7. :)

Immmaaaa happy girl :)

My parents are coming this weekend and I can't wait to see them!

Have also been wearing eyeliner lately :D

LIFE IS GOOOOOD. :)

Sorry, just very random!

*phone rings* - on loud speaker

Jia Kai: Hello
Amiera and Anita: Jia Kaiiiiiiii!!!!!!! *LAUGHS and LOUD SCREAM*
Jia Kai: .... errr..
Amiera: Jia Kai how could you do that to Mahendra? How could you make him pregnant!
Jia Kai: What the hell! *laughs*
Amiera: What happened to us..? :(
Jia Kai: WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!!!
Amiera: And you cheated on Anita too?! *anita laughs behind*
Jia Kai: *silent*
Amiera: I'm going to kill Mahendra and his baby!
Jia Kai: Hahahaha!
Amiera: I'm gonna press his stomach until his shit and baby come out!
Anita: *in the back* WOAH so violent one!
Jia Kai: wth. I thought you supposed to discuss yoga with Cedric?!
Amiera: No, I discuss World Domination with Cedric. I discuss yoga with Adilet. And you, about us *Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis plays at the back.*
Jia Kai: *LAUGHS* WHAT THE HELL
Amiera: Keep bleeding , keep keep bleeding love *between sobs*

Amiera presses end call.

THE END.


In MSN -
Amiera: you lah hamsap main kayu tiga.
Jia Kai: we're not you
Amiera: You said "we". WEE WEE. PEE PEE. POTTY.
Jia Kai: *swt*...I need to do ISU!! Leave me alone pls!
Amiera: then go lah! you think i care ='( i don't care ok fine tak nak kawan anymore we're not frens no more we are enemies *grr* tonight you die ahh

Nerds and Jocks Day.

Today was Nerds and Jocks day! A lot of people dressed up :) I wore my sister's basketball top and borrowed Lia's basketball shorts! I'm a jock hehe! Most people brought their spectacles and wore them today - Amanda, Adilet, Syeyi, Syuyi and many more :) It was funnny and Chermayne's outfit was the best! Haha! (:

Amanda was this stylish nerd. You'll get what I mean when you see the pictures. With glasses she looks like Nelly from GG and without glasses, she's like Blair. Hmmm.

Michael, Essi and Darren were all wearing Isaac's necktie - all cartoons one. Damn funny la. :D I wore them too! Hehe! For lunch today we were brought to the SIS house near the badminton. They said we'll eat in a "green environment". -.-" It's okay la - the food was different for once, we had sate! :D

English today was funny! We had the whole period to work on our 50-word short story. Yes it has to be EXACTLY 50 words! And then we had to get a peer to evaluate our work. I managed to do it. Adilet was the funniest. He kept complaining and then would go "YES!" when he got it and stuff. He was like so stressed he had to minus one "." from "...", "and" and "but" to get 50 words! Haha! The funniest part was when he started the story like "The cars stopped". -.- Mine was about friendship! :) This is mine:

It’s been a year since I last spoke to Elizabeth. I walked to the park and stopped by a tree. Elizabeth was there too.
“Remember the pact we made by this tree before the fight?”
“That’s why I’m here.”
Right away, I knew I had my best friend back again.

There was Open Mic after school today and we stayed back only for Syeyi before going to Pyramid :)) Arrrggggghh I hate the hostel guards! :( Made me stomped back to school making Adilet and Syafiqah ask me if I was okayy. :(