Ah, as you can see I've changed my blog skin. :) All by myself, I'm so proud of this achievement. Tee-hee. My sister has been teaching me but I couldnt get it right. But I can now. So I'm finally back in my hostel again. Said goodbye to my parents and sister and then they left me here. Had to unpack everything again and all the new stuff I've got.

So, my CNY was really great despite the fact that I think I've gotten a lil' emo and didnt really play those card games with my cousins. But the others, fantastic.

There were relatives who flew all the way from Australia to be with us so that was great. My grandfather's house was basically full! :D

We also celebrated my grandfather's and cousins' birthday too :)

So here are some pictures from this whole week! :D

My dearest family and I <3

All the cousins with our grandfather. :)

And the whole family!

My cousins Meng Qi and Jia Ying from Melbourne!

My bro telling some of his lame jokes.

And his jokes got people laughing! :D

GAMBLING.

Bro and I. :)

Grandfather and cousins celebrating their birthday! :D

While the rest of us..yeah, become paparazis! :D

My cuuuuuuuuuuuute twin nephews! :)

Yes, many many people, eh? :) Hehe. I hardly get to see most of them so this CNY is really memorable. There are many other pictures and I even did a "photo shoot" where my sister was the photographer because she has a dslr now! :D Hehe.

Anyway, I've had a longgg day. Woke up at 5.30 this morning. So I better get some sleep! (:

Ciaooooo.

I got new tops and a dress! (:

I'll stay if you will.

Sigh sigh. I do not know what to name my blog
So I apologize for changing the name every now and then. :)

To Gurney we shall go! (:
Going back to KL early in the morning tomorrow :|

to wonder.

we know in life people judge us,
but the worst is when our own family judge us.

For all I ever feared was looking in the mirror,
and of everything, to see a look of failure.

Now all I need is someone to tell me that in all these years,
I've been nothing at all.

A Truth and A Lie

The lie is that things will be alright,

the truth is that they sometimes don't.

This, shall remain forever.

Chinese New Year eve dinner with the family :)

For now.

Hey, I'm currently over at my grandpa's place in Penang. Me and my bro flew to here from KL yesterday at 4.30pm and arrived around 5.15pm.

Nothing much is going on. Just met with some cousins from Australia. My parents and sister are not here yet. They're flying here from Sandakan on Monday.

And tomorrow, CNY eve dinner with family. :)

Unfair. All my friends are going to Pyramid together as I'm typing this, when I have to fly to Penang later and get ready. :(

countless.

If everyone couldn't see, the world would be a better place;
because then we wouldn't be able to judge each other.

I'm angry.
I'm frustrated.
I'm lost.

so many times i wish i could, in some way, let someone know the way i feel.
But it's not easy, because i fear that people will look at me weirdly, and ask people
if anything is wrong with me.
the fact that i am angry, i am frustrated, i am lost,
but there is no reason why.
i've been dragged inside this hole, so deep.

so many times i wish i could let you know.
that i never wanted to be like this.
if i could, i would be the person that you wanted me to become.
the imperfections in me that bothered you.

so many times i wish i could apologize to you,
because i couldn't be that person.
that you wish i was.
the person,
that you wish you knew.

so many times i know, that somehow i'm not to blame.
that i am this way because, i just am.

but.
so many times i wish, if i could, be something better.

to be that someone that you would be proud of.

I AM FUCKING PISSED.
AND I DON'T CARE WHO READS THIS.

Pictures.

Mark, Syeyi, and I in BTA3O

Mark the master of .. yeah. nothing. (:

Copying Syeyi's pose. hehe.

It took him 2 shots to smile. -.-

Doing our work. And David on Facebook.

Syeyi and david.

Me.

Ian. :)

Axcil.

Lia and I. (: