; the last of this. :)

- but i heard you calling out to me.

With 2009 approaching its end, might as well write my last post for the year. 2009, for me, has been a really good year. I've learnt so much from friendships, schools, and just life. I've learnt -

; things don't always go your way, but you can always make the best of it.

; i don't have to be like everyone else.

; there's a little magic in everyone that could save someone else's life.

Me and a lot of friends are moving on from high school to our first year of college. Honestly, I do not know what to expect but the thought of me actually growing up scares me. I've heard foundation year is just the same as where we just came from, but just with more new people and teachers, and a new environment. Personally, I never like these things. I don't like having to adapt to new environments. I am the kind of person who just sticks to whatever I'm used to. But change happens all the time. And who knows, a little change might help.

I love my friends :) Just like what Syuyi said in one of her posts, I've never met friends like these who I can actually consider family. I have friends who remind me of my brothers and sisters, and it makes me feel a lot better about being away from home. They're always there for me and we're always there for each other. These people are just simply amazing, unique, beautiful, and precious.

Ever had moments where you suddenly realized your life is suddenly worth living and you just snap out of your depression, sadness, shell, or whatever it is? I've had that these 2 years, but this year stands out for me. I've helped myself by helping a friend, and from there I've learnt lessons - no one's problem is ever smaller or bigger, everyone has different problems and to them certain problems can be the biggest for them, but smallest for others. But in the end, they're all problems. And they're all the same.

For 2010, I have my resolutions. Of course, there are some that we all wish for-good grades and to study harder. Yes, they're part of my resolutions. But, really, for 2010, all I really want to promise myself and to do is just to appreciate everything and everyone that comes my way. As simple as that. I don't want to make myself worry a lot and I just want to be able to enjoy life. ;)

live high!

; and then i knew :)

I guess all these time, I just needed a good night sleep. And oh yea, i've been having them. :) My last week here has been pretty good and passing by fairly fast. I've been helping out at the cheshire home for almost 17 hours in 4 days and finished reading a novel in 3 days. Tomorrow, my hair will be highlighted pink and blue and two days later, i'll be on my way back to KL! Wooohoooooo :)

come here, come here. (:

wondering.

; everybody needs someone.

"we can only dream. There's only so much we can do"

; to each their own. <3

2009; no doubt i will miss this year. The events, friends, fights, gossips, and all the other imperfect times.

; a night of wonder, tears of happiness and sadness, learning to let ourselves go. Some of us not wanting to let go of what we have gone through together, others looking forward to what the future holds. I'll remember that night, learning that I could almost lose a friend, knowing that there will always be those friends around you when you need them.

No, friends like these don't just come and go.

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; the nights we stay in school to study. What first turned out to be terrible turned out to be quite fun. I wish those nights would stay forever. Classes we rule over, music we blasted, watching the guys dancing. I'll miss those dinners that caused us to be late for this gathering almost every other night.

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; the four crazy besties I never knew I could have. Late night talks, horror movies, playing in the rain, secrets-sharing, playing our air guitars on the rooftop. One is leaving us, the other 3 will still be here together. We'll miss you, number 4 . Growing and changing in front of each other's eyes, the dreams we all shared together. The loved ones.

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; I'll miss all the events and theme days at SIS. We dress up, we laugh at each other's outfits, we take pictures. Helping each other out with the make-ups and playing around with the teachers. So many days and events we have gone through together, and I'm sure there will be more.

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; i'll miss being there taking pictures, cheering for the football team.

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; jumping in KLCC, hanging out there. You getting me a stuff snake.

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; when you leave, Mark, don't forget that you've always wanted to be a woman ;)

you pose SEXY.

;yes, i'll definitely miss this year.

; the last few pages.

; we're hot and sexy.

we're people with asses :)

my, have i not blog in a really long time. holidays are passing by a bit slow for me, but today I decided to learn something for the holiday.

"the pages will always be filled until the end of this year. But no, that does not mark its end"

i'll see you there <3

delam barat tangshode, azizam :)

; amiera.

' you already know what i want to say. I miss you so much, i'm already missing you. The moment we hugged and cried justnow, I didnt want to let go. Please take good care of yourself when you head off to Canada, I'll miss you so, so, gazillion so much. I'll do my best to see you off at the airport if i really can.

we've been through just so much, too many things together. You told me im like the sister you never had, the same goes for you. You're more than just a good friend, you're more than that. You're a beautiful person with an intelligent mind, and never look down on yourself. You're awesome just the way you are and have made lots of people love you because you are you! :)

I'll always, always, always miss you.

<3

; not just a friend.

; i just love owl city. i love his songs.

my life has never been this exciting and happening. amanda was right, we're both at the happiest point in our lives now. For the first time, exams do not have a reason to make me feel stressed out.

so what happens after my exams? I'll be heading back home on the 8th. I have no idea why i was booked for such an early flight back, since I seriously have nothing much to do at all back there. But i guess it makes sense as most of my friends are leaving for their own countries early December too. Most of them are going back to their snowing hometown, but not me. sigh. But what makes this all worse is the fact that i'll be saying a lot of goodbyes to a lot of close friends. All of them leaving to other countries, far away. And what sucks more than knowing that the last time I'll be seeing you is next week? That the remaining 4 days starting from tomorrow will be the last time I'm seeing you?

you know who you are, you :) I'll surely miss you so badly. I'll post a picture of us once you allow me to blog about where you are going off to. I'll miss everything about you, even the simplest thing. Your smile and your caterpillar move with your green blanket. :) I want you to know, you've been an amazing friend. Truly amazing. Thanks for everything that you've done for me, I'll miss those night we stay up and share secrets, talk, and gossip. Our lives have been so interesting, have they not? We always have stories to tell each other. You're one hell of a crazy woman, always have been. And I hope that the next time we meet, you're still that crazy woman.

Thanks for making me a crazy person, too :) No, I'm not being sarcastic. Seriously, thanks. I'll miss all of the things that we did together. Shopping, make-ups and so much more. no one can ever replace you and i hope you'll have the best of the best when you head to that other place for your studies. you'll do great in the exams tomorrow and the next day. trust me, you will :)

i love you. :)

for the ones.

; it's always been you guys i depend on.

we've always found a way to connect;

and through it all you guys have been amazing.

you were right, syu, what does it mean?

are friendships just a game?

what does it mean to make really good friends,

and when they leave, what happens after that?

shima, yes i do have a weird obsession on the dwarf outfit. but like you, i'm weird in a certain way :) drama class with you has certainly brought us closer.

syuyi, you crazy woman. you were the one dancing like a drunk ;) hopefully we still get to gossip as much as we get to now in the future.

jia kai, i'm always going to be here for you :) anytime you feel down or anything, you know you can depend on me. and the same goes for me, i know that.

adilet, you've always reminded me of my older brothers. and im proud to be your little sister :) stop polluting my mind with sick jokes!

hatso, the one from madagascar! :) yea you're one funny guy and i love your sense of fashion :) the scarves!

mostafa, another bully like adilet! i love putting my hand on your HEAD.

nadira, what you said that night was all true. but i have my own faults too. we're just human and we make mistakes.

mark, copolo :) you're gonna leave soon. i'm glad to be one of the first people to talk to you when you came to SIS. gonna miss you.

mahendra, my dearest son :) you're one hell of a deep person. so much thought to share :) i love you.

cedric, you've always been there for me. just letting me know that things will be fine. so thanks a much :)

; 3 days.

; a moment like this.

; the night that was, once.

i need you now, like i never did before.

and when you leave soon,

i'll surely miss you.

but i'll smile when you leave,

because i know you can't wait too.

but dear you,

please don't forget me.

doosetdaram.

; we danced. we danced!

'; i have to say, prom last night was a blast! Total awesomeness. All the pretty ladies and handsome gentlemen ;) It was amazing. Lots of pictures taken. I have around 300 over pictures. My camera died when it came to the dancing time so that sucked. But who cares, everyone was dancing like crazzzzzy! For the first 20 minutes over I danced with my heels. After that I just threw put heels at one side. Man, I've never danced so much and so long and sweat so much in my whole life. Everyone was high and just dancing away like crazy! :D Even the teachers danced with us! :)

Prom was interesting too as there were performances by students and there were a couple of videos, one made by me, shown to the school. Isaac, Syeyi, and Sonia gave the valedictorian speech. It was touching :)

Prom ended around 12 midnight. Tho me and 10 other people stayed back to hang out and just cherish these last few moments. For the guys, it was really emotional. They were all crying. Me, Syu and Shima were just looking. After that, we all headed to the nearest KFC and sat there, talked and joked until around 2am. Those who were there were me, Jia Kai, Hatso, Syeyi, Cedric, Adilet, Hooman, Syuyi, Farid, and Shima.

Yesterday was also the last day of school. Like I say, exams would be on the coming Monday until Wednesday. I really have to study for Biology and History, two major subjects. :/

;right before

; amanda wong.

; mostafa :)

; Olly and Dias!!!

; Cedric, my date.

; mostafa with the ladies

; jia kai and amiera :D

; and him again.

; a crazy bunch of us. ;)

; Hatso Madagascar!

; happy 4 friends @ prom.

; Oh! Clarence

;Fariddddd.

; Mostafa

; Syu and Farid.

;Adilet and yours truly.

;Aziza!

; shimmy shima

; shoe.

; as a couple, we shall take lots of pictures. :)

; FARID.

; Mr Smajda rocks!

; Eunice.

; Mr Owen!

; Mori ;)

; Mark Teoh.

; Febri

; Jesselyn

; JFK.

; all the graduates. spot me :)

; Dias and Olllllly.

; Yasamine

; Dearest Ms Rani.

; Amanda, Megan, me, Stephanie

; Fayed.

; Ms Shannon. :D

; Cedric.

; crazy people.

; right before we started dancing.

; after this picture, my camera died. -.-

But then again! I had so much fun, especially dancing :) My legs and toes are so sore and aching now. I see red spots all over :\ Gah, but it was for fun so it's worth it :)

It's all so surreal. Seems just like yesterday I just joined SIS and swoosh, two years have past and now it's time to leave and go somewhere else and start new again. Well not really in my case as most people from the gang are going to CIMP too, anyway, but no doubt certain things will definitely change.

Like we say, SIS was a very fun ride and a worthwhile journey.