; so promise me.

This woman is just so so pretty,
and what with the make up!
This is the kind of make up I want to try in the future!

This picture is so amazingly pretty.
The pretty colors and lashes.
Told you bright colors is what I want to try (:

This woman here, this celebrity motivated me to pick up my first eyeliner.
I STILL love her make up until today
..
But I think her make up looks so good only on her. :(

I'm currently having a break now, and I'm always at the computer lab after having lunch. Call me a stalker, but I was browsing through some friends' Facebook pages and I realized that so many of them are overseas. I didn't even know, and suddenly you see pictures of them in Australia, in Europe, in England. It's crazy! (: I have to admit, I get a little jealous. I cannot wait to go to those places to study as well! (: Unfortunately, I probably still have to wait for a year or two, or half hopefully :)

For next year, I've made up my mind to study in university majoring in Psych and minoring in Communication studies/ Media studies - how different universities call them. I still don't get why my parents do not want me to apply for the two possible universities that I am definitely going to, seeing that I am going to be stuck in Malaysia for next year still. They want me to explore first, and I get what they mean but I just don't know what else to explore for since I've been doing research on universities for almost 2 months, and narrowed down to 2 universities. So why not just apply for them both? What else is there to explore? It's kinda silly I'm still waiting here since I already made up my mind. shush. :(

Long story short -
I CANNOT wait to get out of college. And I want to faster know which university I will go to eventually.

(:
bye.

; here again (:

So basically, this is how I look now (:
I love my mixed-up lenses (:
I think it's creative.

I was browsing through my Blogger and I realized, this is where all the great old memories are. And I want to come back here, anddd so here I am (: And yes, I am back to Blogger. Xanga was nice, I'll probably still use it in the future.

Halloween is this Frrr-friday! I won't say what I am going as as it is still pretty much not confirmed but I have an idea (: I can't say I'm very excited for the event. This year definitely isn't the best time of my life. Geh, screw college.

I'm crazy about make up now! Okay, you probably think how I can be crazy about that now when all this while I've been using make up. Well, I'm ready to try more colors :) Bright colors, I wanna try you!

And then the exams are coming. Finals, man! I've got a pretty good exam schedule so I bet I can study enough for all3 subjects (:

And then...

*drum roooolllls*

GRADUATION!

Man I am finally at this point, graduation! (: Like, yahooooo! I can't wait to go to university! :)

Anyhoos, World Issues class is starting (: gottago!

an ordinary fairytale.

I've stumbled and fallen.

I'm having nostalgia. Suddenly, all the little, little things from the past become so important to me now. Primary schooldays, birthdays celebrations at home and the evenings at home. I seem to move on from one feeling slash illness from time to time. First it was depression, then paranoia. Now it's nostalgia.

I'm afraid my life is passing by a little too fast and I can't grasp hold of everything in the way.

Where are those feel-good days? :(

hot and cold.

Just like I promised, pictures from the wedding assignment :)

this was taken after the end of my group's presentation.

Yosceline and Will as the bride and groom .

I was the narrator, oh and it's Shima's dress!

Will Al :)

Michael as the monk :D

Johan and Lisa.

Stefanie and I during our rehearsal on Sunday.

I like this part of their wedding.

In comes the bride.

Leticia, Stefanie and I :)

The things stress and assignments can make you feel and do. I have been over than just stressful this past week due to all the assignments that I was to perform. But this past week has been great. Prom is coming up this coming Thursday and although I'm not going, I'll most probably go to mos or something.

The work for English class is overloading! Two presentations in a week and on top of that, we have to create two posters and prepare for two different presentations on different topics. Woo, that's a lot to do :(

***

I think I need to have more alone time.

what have i become?

; it's time I realize nothing lasts

Ah, it has definitely been a long, long while since I last updated. And i am so very sorry for that. I've been keeping people out of updates. So much have happened in life, in college. This is also, in fact, the first time I get internet in my hostel room after 2 or 3 months. You could say things are going pretty well for me. Academic wise, that is. But social wise, now that's a different story. I mean, I still hang out with pretty much the same people from sis. But as more of them move on, I'm still stuck to where I came from.

The stress for work and project tasks is piling up continuously. In next week, I'll be presenting a 30 minute presentation for Math and performing a Jewish wedding for Families. The latter one sounds more fun, of course and it is. Me and the rest of the rest are pretty excited about it either, getting dresses and tuxedos and preparing the food and everything. It will be fun :) And I promise, oh I promise, I'll post pictures up!

My camera has also been taking a longgggggg holiday. Havent used it in a while - I guess things change, you know? Especially when you are in a new environment, you just gotta go with the flow.

Oh highlight of the day? I found a Nokia phone in the toilet and after much calling and texting the owner, I gave it back to her. Feel pretty good about it, of course. Though people are like, " you should have just taken it!" True enough part of me wanted to, but come on, you wouldn't want something like that to happen to yourselves, now would you? (;

Holidays, I need you!

CNY :)

I've been so away, but I've been pestered by Jia Kai to update my blog and so here I am :) I flew to Penang for CNY and met up with my sister and brother and a lot of the other relatives who come from KL and Australia. It's been quite a holiday - we travelled everywhere in a pack -usually in 3 to 4 cars- and took a lot of pictures.

There are quite a number of photographers in my family now : my sister and two of my uncles. Seriously, like they have dslr cameras with all the lenses and tripod stands, it's kinda funny :)

Not to mention I get to have a lot of photoshoots!

I love my sister's dress here :) and her killer heels!

see, I wasn't kidding about the cameras and stands! :D

was receiving an angpau from a cousin :)

papa took this awesome pic <3

brother, sister, me.

These are from the first day of CNY. :)

Over the next few days, we spent a lot of time at our relatives' house singing our hearts away to their new karaoke set and just eating away. Usually, we get home past 12. Been sleeping really late this whole week! And waking up early because there are adventures prepared for us. Cousins were playing cards and everything. Pretty chaotic but cool, as well ;)

chocolates with wine taste IN them :)

cheeeeezels! That's my cousin from Melbourne ;)

Took this outside Queensbay mall

We <3>

sisterrr.

me with my brother :) i seriously love that place.

the night we celebrated Grandpa's 84th bday at a hotel :)

playing - sparkles? ;) Yea, it was fun!

There are a lot of other fantastic pictures, but I just posted a few over here. I'm actually all alone right now - my brother and sister left for Singapore and then for Brisbane justnow. I'll be the only one left in M'sia now, kinda sad. This holiday hasn't been that well for me, but I guess it is okay enough for me to remember :)

lots of love.

LET'S DRESS LIKE SLUTS.

hey.

hey, i miss singing lady gaga's songs with you.

deprived.

i hate the internet at the hostel.

i'm chatting to my friends and all of sudden, i just go disconnected. Ugh, it can be so frustrating. Dance today was really fun, we planned for the performance - looks like it's going to be a lot of fun! I was reading Syu's blog and she surprised me by posting so many posts within a week, it kinda motivated me to blog as well.

I was reading my sister's blog, I didn't know my brother had his own camera. I am so deprived, so far behind of family's news. This truly sucks.

Oh, but whatever.

you're like poison, just lovelier.

tomorrow i have

a math test

a families test

a 3-page essay due.

and it's raining.

i still ask myself if i made the right decision.

but i love you.

for now.

Sorry I have been so away from this blog. I hardly even touch my laptop anymore these days, hardly getting online. I guess I can say that college is all going still quite well. Syuyi said, I can't believe we're in college. I guess, yeah it is true, except that we're not really in college yet, Mr C. said. Grade 12 is still high school. It kinda crushed Farid. But I agree.

Does anything I say make sense?

To start off, this semester in CIMP I'm taking MDM4U, ENG4U, and HHS4M. That is Maths, English, and Individuals and Families in a Diverse Society. All classes are going well. My favorite classes are English and Families, the one I like the least is English, too. Why you ask? I like it because I'm with the rest like Syeyi, Adilet, and Jia kai. I hate it because the lecturer has only been giving us essays these few weeks - reading them and analysing each of them. It's really tough. I've never really considered punctuations in essays this much.

And don't start by asking me about pictures, I have tons of them to upload but I just can't right now. The internet I'm using now is really slow that I can't really upload any pictures, so I apologize. But I swear, there are pictures in my laptop right now, which I will one day upload. I've been keeping myself busy these few days by reading Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper. Nice book, getting the movie tomorrow from Syeyi to watch. I think I'll cry watching the movie. It's amazing how just by reading a book, I don't feel so alone when I'm by myself.

I'm joining the dance club in CIMP-something different and unexpected, maybe? Went bowling last Friday with 124 other students, and watching the movie Up in Feb. All money paid is going to donations.

I guess the best part of CIMP is that we're still all together.

identity.

it's still us. It's still us. :)

Let me tell you something I realized.

When the teacher calls your name to answer a question, another person answers it for you.

Your name isn't really your identity.